[He's not going to lie about it. He knows what he's doing, he knows it's bad, but he feels so awful he just doesn't care.
He doesn't want to care, anyway. Underneath the willful apathy he's ashamed of himself, and afraid of what a mess he's become yet again. It's just that he wants to face himself even less the worse it gets.]
And I believe, as a grown man, I can choose to chase oblivion as much as I like.
Re: Day 280
[He's not going to lie about it. He knows what he's doing, he knows it's bad, but he feels so awful he just doesn't care.
He doesn't want to care, anyway. Underneath the willful apathy he's ashamed of himself, and afraid of what a mess he's become yet again. It's just that he wants to face himself even less the worse it gets.]
And I believe, as a grown man, I can choose to chase oblivion as much as I like.