Now—it is still yet early in the day to sleep, but a bath may do you some good. After that, there'll be mutton stew for you to eat, so take your time sobering up, Thancred-san.
[The spiteful, bitter part of Thancred wants to be a stubborn brat about this. Fortunately he is old enough and has learned enough to be well aware that he's out of control and needs help, so even if he cannot even begin to promise that he'll sober up for long, he at least doesn't fight Lucifel in this particular moment.
He just makes a long, frustrated sound, and then shoves himself to his feet, with a great deal of stumbling.]
Hide all that and I will kill you.
[It's an idle threat. He would not hurt Luci but he will be Upset!]
[Ugh. Thancred drags a hand down his face, willing himself to be at least a little bit emotionally steady. It's not working very well but at least he can shut up and wobble off to do as he's told. Grudgingly. He will try to get his booze back pretty quickly.]
[ he might be able to catch lucifel stashing the alcohol in lucifel's own room, before going to the kitchen to cook. It doesn't take him that long even so it's entirely possible he just tossed the bottles in or sth ]
[That smells heavenly and he really, really wants to go be fed.
But he also wants to get back to not having thoughts, so once he's gotten dressed and smacks his cheeks a bit to wake himself up, he is absolutely going to see if Lucifel's door is locked and if not, if he can get in.]
[ he CAN get in! Strangely, however, there is no alcohol to be found, at least not at first glance. His room is a little messy though, with clothes piled in the corner as well as like, handicrafts projects he's started. ]
[He's not quite desperate enough to trash Lucifel's room, so when he can't find it he'll leave. He's all sorts of bristly when he comes into the kitchen, though.]
[He's not going to lie about it. He knows what he's doing, he knows it's bad, but he feels so awful he just doesn't care.
He doesn't want to care, anyway. Underneath the willful apathy he's ashamed of himself, and afraid of what a mess he's become yet again. It's just that he wants to face himself even less the worse it gets.]
And I believe, as a grown man, I can choose to chase oblivion as much as I like.
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He just makes a long, frustrated sound, and then shoves himself to his feet, with a great deal of stumbling.]
Hide all that and I will kill you.
[It's an idle threat. He would not hurt Luci but he will be Upset!]
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[ smiles! this is not an idle threat. ]
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First though he's gonna take a cold shower and smush his face against the wall for a bit til he feels marginally more human.]
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also, good luck trying. when thancred eventually gets out there is the smell of lamb in the air ]
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But he also wants to get back to not having thoughts, so once he's gotten dressed and smacks his cheeks a bit to wake himself up, he is absolutely going to see if Lucifel's door is locked and if not, if he can get in.]
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Give it back.
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[ innocently, while he sets the rice to cook ]
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Have you not had enough liquor?
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I've had enough for the moment, but it is still mine to put away where I wish.
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[ taking his phone out, now ]
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[crossing his arms and making a face!!]
If you are going to patronize me I will take my leave for the day.
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I am worried for you, Thancred-san. The way you drink seems as though you're trying to flee from sobriety as quickly and as often as possible.
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[He's not going to lie about it. He knows what he's doing, he knows it's bad, but he feels so awful he just doesn't care.
He doesn't want to care, anyway. Underneath the willful apathy he's ashamed of himself, and afraid of what a mess he's become yet again. It's just that he wants to face himself even less the worse it gets.]
And I believe, as a grown man, I can choose to chase oblivion as much as I like.
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There is no peace to be found in oblivion, Thancred-san. Though its waters beckon you—you will only find yourself in ruins.
[ and—even softer ]
. . . I know it is painful. I know.
[ who else would know that pain better than he? ]
But you are only opening more wounds for yourself like this.
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[Because, y'know. He's done this before!]
At the moment, I do not care. What are a few more mistakes on top of all the rest? I will stop when I have something better to do.
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[ with a little frown, and then a deeper frown ]
Even if you do not care for yourself, I care—for you, and for your health.
There are plenty of things to do better than courting oblivion—if you do not have something to do, then there is plenty to learn to do.
[ offering him a hand ]
Thancred-san. None would begrudge you for your mistakes, but won't you consider making different ones than these?
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[He's not taking Lucifel's hand, though, because he doesn't actually intend to change his mind.]
For now, I'll be on my way.
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. . . Very well. Then, there will be food in the fridge when you come back.
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