[He knows he is being mean to reject Lucifel's kindness, but... but. Everyone worrying about him and pointing out that he's not okay makes him so embarrassed it crosses over into angry. He doesn't want to be worried about. He doesn't want to be looked at with pity. He doesn't know what he does want, but it's not that!
So he's going to storm off and sulk elsewhere, rather than say something he doesn't mean just to try to get the shame to go away.]
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Re: Day 280
There is no peace to be found in oblivion, Thancred-san. Though its waters beckon you—you will only find yourself in ruins.
[ and—even softer ]
. . . I know it is painful. I know.
[ who else would know that pain better than he? ]
But you are only opening more wounds for yourself like this.
Re: Day 280
[Because, y'know. He's done this before!]
At the moment, I do not care. What are a few more mistakes on top of all the rest? I will stop when I have something better to do.
Re: Day 280
[ with a little frown, and then a deeper frown ]
Even if you do not care for yourself, I care—for you, and for your health.
There are plenty of things to do better than courting oblivion—if you do not have something to do, then there is plenty to learn to do.
[ offering him a hand ]
Thancred-san. None would begrudge you for your mistakes, but won't you consider making different ones than these?
Re: Day 280
[He's not taking Lucifel's hand, though, because he doesn't actually intend to change his mind.]
For now, I'll be on my way.
Re: Day 280
. . . Very well. Then, there will be food in the fridge when you come back.
Re: Day 280
[He knows he is being mean to reject Lucifel's kindness, but... but. Everyone worrying about him and pointing out that he's not okay makes him so embarrassed it crosses over into angry. He doesn't want to be worried about. He doesn't want to be looked at with pity. He doesn't know what he does want, but it's not that!
So he's going to storm off and sulk elsewhere, rather than say something he doesn't mean just to try to get the shame to go away.]
Re: Day 280